Okay, I cancled the apointment with the obtomogrest, cause they specalize in giving out glasses, and made an apointment with a retna specialest since I have ROp, and they will be the best in giving an acquarate ocular asesment. I call and the secretary says, you know, we only specialize in eye conditions having to do with the retna. Keep in mind I'd already specified that I have ROP. I said I know, and I'm totally blind, and I don't need glasses cause there isn't any hope of me ever getting my vision back. I think I kind of made her feel bad, but I was laughing when I said that because I found it humorious that people were having issues with a blind person making an eye appointment. I've been to an eye doctor before of course, but not in this state, and I've never had to make my own appointment because the last time I went I was with my grandmother.

Current Mood: amused

well, of course I said yesterday that in order for me to get disability services to work with me at Uni, I need to get an obtomotrist to look at my eyes and give me an ocular asesment. When I called and told the secretary I was totally blind and need an eye checkup and the doctor to fill out an ocular asesment she said, but your blind. I felt like saying duh like a child, but I refrained from doing so. I explained to her my situation, and then she asked, are you sure you need to see an eye doctor, I said yeah and she made the apointment, although I still think she was confused. lol.

Well, today was a good day. My husband had the day off so we went out to red Lobster for dinner. I had pop corn shrimp and shrimp scampie along with mashed potatoes, and I brought hom a piece of New York Cheesecake with strawberries on top. We came home, I fed Caitlyn a bottle, then my husband installed some regestry software on my computer and cleaned up my regestry and stuff. After that we went on a walk to the post office. I'd never gone there before but we went right past the collar general which I know how to get to and we kind of confused Ireland cause she wanted to go in since that is usually where we go, but I got her to go passed and we went to the dpost office and she did well. On the way home though she stopped and did number two business on the sidewalk which was bad. She'd had a chance to do that before we left and only went number one, but she was doing so well on her walk I didn't scold her too much. My guide dog rainer said once we are back in school and have a set roteen again she will be back to doing her business only when she's told like she use to.

We came home and my husband's computer wouldn't restart windows. Apparently the program tried to fix his rebute system or something, I know nothing about computers, anyway, it wouldn't restart windows and when he tried to restore his system to factory it wouldn't, so he has to call hp tomorrow.

My husband looked online to see which optamologist I could go to for my eye appointmet so I can get disability services at the university. They need an ocular asesment in order to get accomidations.
Well, I'm of to read a little before bed.

I swear, I wasn't going to say anything, but it bugged me when my husband left for work and didn't wish me a happy birthday Kind of childish huh, anyway, he called me, and by this time three friends had caled me to say happy birthday and I was irked that my husband hadn't said anything, and knowing that I won't see him until around midnight I foolishly said, You know you haven't wished me a happy birthday? He said. I'm sorry dear, in a voice that wasn't pleased with me, but I wasn't awake when I left this morning, and I would have remembered before the day was over. I know, stupid, stupid me. I only can hope that he doesn't come home and get mad at me for saying anything, cause I don't want to argue.

Current Mood: annoyed

Well, today has been boring. I started Caitlyn on vegies and I don't think she is happy about the idea. I had to pretend like I was going to eat them before she'd think about opening her mouth and once I put the spoon in I think she spit most of it out. I fed her a jar of green beans though even though half of it got on her bib and her face, and her, but at least some of it is in her stomach.

I want to go do something, but I have noone to go do anything with. Sad huh, but since I moved here I had a baby, so haven't had a chance to get out and make friends and since my husbands family had estranged themselves from us, or only comes around when they want something, well, I have noone.
My birthday is going to be boring. Husband has to work so I'll be home with Caitlyn, doing nothing. I did get $175 from my aunt and Uncle and grandpa, and my mother sent me a birthday card. I was shocked. She hasn't bought me anything for my birthday in over five years, maybe she's trying to suck up so she can stay in my house if she ever comes and visits, which by the way, I won't let her do because she's famous for steeling, but that's a story for another time.

My husband doesn't me flying far with Caitlyn yet, but I told him I need to get out before I go nuts. My brother and sister in law were supposed to come see me in June, but can't, or won't, because my brother doesn't want to drive twelve hours, so I'm going to fly to Dalas which is a two hour flight, and then ride in a car with them for three hours to there little town. I could take two flights but I don't want to take one of thos little comuter planes with a guidedog and a baby by myself just yet. I'm glad I will be going in June cause I get to see my sister-in-law, I'm not really inthused about seeing my brother, sad, I know, but he doesn't like me, and we end up arguing if we are around each other a lot. He blames me for my mothers issues when we were growing up, but that's another story for anothet time. lIfe is full of stories huh. Someone told me once I should write an autobiography, and with all I've seen and went through I'd make it big. I'm not that talented though.

Awe, the point of this entry went out of the window, but my fingers usually to the talking anyway, so whatever. Boy, this entry sounds like I'm in a bad mood but I'm not. My husband is less cranky lately, he's noticing me, finally, and I have a beautiful daughter. I'm just bored.

Tags: baby, family, vacation
Current Mood: bored

Well, my little girl is growing. She is seven months old and 15 pounds 14 ounces. Most people would say this is small for a seven month old baby, but when your child comes prematurily and is two pounds six ounces, 15 pounds 14 ounces is huge. You can't even tell she was born early. Since spring is here she doesn't have to go in for her senergious shot anymore til next fall when flew and cold season start up again.

The nurse practitioner said that her pushing her food out of her mouth at this stage is still fine, it will take a while for her to get use to eating. She is a little behind still because she isn't sitting up yet and she hadn't tried crawling until today. We were sitting in the doctors examining room when all of a sudden she put her legs under her and moved eight inches. Then she got tired and collapsed onto her stomach. The doctor just laughed cause we were just discussing her not crawling yet. She hasn't tried again, but it will only be a matter of time.

Well, nothing much to say. It is a lovely day out, for once, so my husband and I are going to put Caitlyn in her stroller and Ireland is going to get to go on a walk and work. I think she'll be a little rusty cause she hasn't worked for a bit cause of the bad weather and me not being able to take the baby for walks in the cold.
Well, my birthday is on Monday. I don't think I'm going to do much since my husband has to work, but I think we'll go out on Thursday of next week. I told him we ned to find a babysitter so we can have some alone time. He says he doesn't want to leave Caitlyn with someone quite yet cause she is still to young. He said once I go back to school in the fall he will feel confortable, but not yet. I thought to myself, we will never have time alone. lol. Awe well, hugs to all.

Tags: family
Current Location: home
Current Mood: happy

Well, Caitlyn can roll over onto her stomach now with no trouble. Her problem, she can't roll back onto her back yet so she cries for mommy after a bit to roll her over. She's still having trouble taking food off the spoon, and sometimes she sticks her tongue out when I'm trying to stick the spoon in her mouth. Well, she's crying again so I have to go and see if she neds rolling over again, I let her try and figure it out for herself for a bit but eventually I help her.

Well, we started Caitlyn on baby food. Th doctor wanted us to start her on rice cereal, but it was to bland and she didn't like it, so we mixed it in applesauce and she loves applesauce. The only problem we're having is getting her to eat off a spoon. Once you finally get the spoon in her mouth, she doesn't wrap her lips around it like I've seen other baby's do, but she swishes the fod around then swallows it. I was concerned, thinking she wasn't ready for solids, but the pedatritian said she'd be fine. I hope she's right. She hasn't had a reaction to thefood or anything and she likes applesauce so I guess we'll see what happens. We are going to let her get used to eating applesauce before moving onto her next fruit.

Current Mood: happy

First, if you don't want to read rambling or ranting, don't read. If you read this entry you can honestly tell me if I'm of my rocker.
Well yesterday Caitlyn had her six month checkup. She wieghed 15 pounds, 2 ounces and was 26 inches long. The doctor said we could start her on rice cereal and then on fruits a couple weeks after, followed by vegies then meat. Feeding her by a spoon is going to be intresting at first. I heard from my sister in law that some babies don't like eating by spoon, and they especially don't like rice cereal. I hope Caitlyn doesn't put up to much of a fuss. Caitlyn is playing more with her toys and laughing more, so she is well on her way to catching up.

Now to the frustrations. My husband just took over a store, his assistant is on vacation, and he is currently looking for people to become shift managers because they don't have enough people to run shifts. Good news about his job, more pay, and this is something that he has always wanted. Eventually he will be able to make a schedulethat will allow him to be home more with Caitlyn and me, but right now it is hard. He had to open and close on Thursday and wake up at seven thirty yesterday morning to take Caitlyn to the checkup. we thought we'd be out by nine, but we weren't home til ten, he had to be in at work at one si he took a bath to relax and took a short nap. Then he has a busy night and comes home at two-thirty. I had just put Caitlyn down a half an hour before he got home. She had been irratzble because of her shots and finally calmed down. My husband comes in and turns on the movie he had been watching previously. I just turned over and tried to block out the sound and the light from the TV, then he starts watching some comedy toteen for a few minutes after the movie is over and is laughing, keeping me awake. He said he needed to wind down. I pointed out that I had to get up with Caitlyn in three or four hours so to turn it off. He did and we went to sleep.
Naturally he is tired, we were supposed to go to the store to buy stuff and we didn't cause he didn't get up til noon and he had to be in at one. When he said we'd go shopping on Monday I pointed out that we were running out of things and his responce was we ran out of easy things to make, but we have chicken in the freezer to make, not that we have stuff to flavor it with cause we haven't gone to the store, and we have ribs. I said I could have made ribs but there were enough for the two of us so I was saving them, then I said that some things just didn't go together and he said, food is food, eat it. I got angry, maybe I shouldn't have, but the phone rang, saving me from coment.

Maybe I'm just on edge cause I haven't had alone time since Caitlyn came home, and me and my husband haven't had time together for a while now. I love him, I really do, but sometimes I think that he thinks his work is more important then what I do here. When I said i had to get up in a few hours with Caitlyn he said that is parenthood, but he never gets up with her, his responce to that was he works all day. Mind you, I'm just rambling and I'm probably just on edge and making to much of the situation, and yes, I'll talk to him if we are ever around each other for more than sleeping, but I'm frustrated. I love my daughter, and I love my husband, but he works so hard and I understand that, but the selfish part of me thinks that sometimes he thinks more about work then he does us cause even when he is home he talks about work. When I pointed this out he said that's because its my job. My husband can be a very sweet man, kind, patient, and I know he loves me, he just hasn't shown it much lately. Enough rambling, Caitlyn is trying to pull her toys down from her kick and play and eat them so I'm going to go.

Current Mood: frustrated

Hi all:
Well, things have been crazy. Husband has worked eighty hour weeks because his assistant is on vacation and they don't have enough managers to cover all the shifts. He offically got promoted so now he is the boss of his own store much to the consternation of some of his employies. I'm happy for him, but Caitlyn and i miss him.

I filled out my FaFSa and I hope i will get some money so I can go to college this august. I haven't regestered yet but I'm sure I'll get my regestration packet soon. I' a little worried though. I'm majoring in music education, and as a totally blind person who can play the piano by reading music if I have the chance to memorize it, but other than that I suck at the piano, wel, I'm nervious. The music braille code is hard, writting it isn't hard, reading it mostly isn't hard except really difficult peaces. Its analyzing music peaces and writting down the answers for a sighted person to understand that is hard. I want to keep music education as my major, but I don't wantto end up in the situation that I was in before where things got really hard and I didn't do so well, for you sighted people, if you have a three or four page peace of music it ccan be eight to ten pages maybe even more, depending on the peace of music. The problem I have with analyzing music is I don't see everything at once like one would if they were looking at the music so I don't see how everything fits together. Then you have to mark where keys change, sequences, and all this other stuff that I won't go into. The point is, I don't want to go into it and then fail again. I made it through a year and a half of theory before I quit because I had an unhelpfull teacher and I was frustrated.
IIf I can't continuing majoring in music ed I will teach something else, but music ed has always been my dream. I only hope something will work out.

Caitlyn is doing well, she is growing more and more each day. she rolled over by herself for the first time yesterday. she hasn't done it again, but maybe she will son.

Ireland is good. We took her with us out yesterday now that my husband has cleaned his car, and she did well. Since only two people read this, or if more do they don't coment, I'll say thinks to the two who do leave coments. I will write soon when something exciting happens. lol

Current Mood: worried